You are Known

Last night I had a profound experience and some understanding open up to me as I lay quiet in my bed.  I was overcome with the strong impression that I am truly known by my Father in Heaven, that He truly knows me, knows the incoming and outgoings of my heart, of my mind…..my desires, my struggles. Not only that, but that the hosts of heaven also know me. That there is a deep awareness and care there that I have not had understanding of before. There is a song that talks about God being for you, but I had not felt this and not felt His presence so near as last night.  What I learned in those few short moments is that He truly lives and is truly ever present, that He is in the details, and that we are known by Him. The God of this Universe, who has all power both in Heaven and in Earth, knows me by name, knows me personally and He knows you.  It is unfathomable to me, yet I know in my very being it is true. This gives me a whole new perspective today, my focus is on Him, on developing a deeper relationship with Him, hearing His voice.

If the God of this Universe has time for me and to tell me that I am important to Him, what do I have time for?  I feel the time is at hand that we must truly take our stand, decide who’s side we are really on and stand tall and firm in our Father in Heaven and in His Son. I am  not afraid, nor ashamed to say that I am a follower of Jesus Christ, that he is my head and that I know that I am born from Heavenly Parents, that now me and love me just as my earthly parents do. Surely I am of Divine Heritage, we all are and I think that is the number one truth that Satan is trying to cover. When we know who we are and that we are known by the most powerful and loving being of this Universe, Satan’s power diminishes. It is my hope that we will stand in the truth of who we are and believe it, I pray that each of you reading this will be touched to know this same truth about you.  You are loved in so many ways, so many ways that I think we don’t even comprehend.  If you are a parent that constantly thinks of your child, cheers them on, is there when they are sad, prays for ways to understand and help them, then you understand your Father in Heaven, He is the same today, tomorrow and forever especially in His attention towards His children. I praise his name and I am so thankful for these still, small and tender moments where He whispers to my soul and pray that you have these moments and recognize them, because He is whispering to you too.

 

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A New Journey

Hello My Dear Friends,

Its been a long time since I’ve last written and so much has happened and is happening, I can’t wait to share. SO…I’ll just jump right in! My husband and I, yes we have reconciled and some day I may share that miracle story, and our four children, will be leaving May 23rd for Kenya, Africa to serve the people there for 6 months!  We are humanitarians at heart, we love God and we love people and so when the Spirit opened up the way for this we humbly and excitedly said “yes!”.  This has been a prayer on our hearts and an idea in our minds before Forrest and I were even married. We are so very humbled that we are being given the opportunity to love and to work side by side our  friends and family in Kenya.

So many of you have already shown so much love, support and encouragement.  In fact, the reason for coming back to writing is because many of you encouraged me to do so. You expressed your desire to follow our journey and be a part of it with us.  I’m so excited! I love sharing , inspiring and testifying of God’s love and His constant miracles in our lives.  I feel like most every day is a miracle and since we have committed to this journey, not a day goes by where we have not witnessed some tender mercy or miracle.

Life right now for us is centered around being prepared for all that may be required of us. We are learning so much about the power of simplicity, purging and letting go. We are also learning so much about the power of being together as a family, studying the word of God together and praying together. To some it may seem extreme as we are living in our fifth wheel on a friends property in Hooper, homeschooling our kids and working on projects for fundraising and learning skills that we may need in Kenya. This, is also where the beauty is beginning to enfold!  Don’t get me wrong, we are a normal family , in the fact that there is quarreling and teasing, we just don’t have a lot distracting us from one another so we have more time to work things out. Its amazing to me how the Lord brings circumstances into our lives to help us come closer to Him. This is how we see this whole experience, an opportunity to detach more from the things of the world and come more into the things of eternity.  This is affording our family time to heal our relationships after 2 separations and get ready to mentor other families.  Its humbling to me that the Lord knows these beautiful children so well, that he would invite them to learn at an early age that value is found in relationships, not things.  It has been difficult for me at times to say no to extra things that I know would bring my kids a moment of joy, it has challenged me to focus on what is in the near future for them and to set my eyes on this.  True sacrifice is work, but this i know, it brings about true happiness. I know my children don’t fully understand now, I do know they find great joy in thinking and working to go to Kenya and serving the families there, and I know that the sacrifices we are making will pay off.  These children are mighty spirits and I am honored to be their mother and to help facilitate an awesome experience that will mold them and shape them in such a positive way.

For those of you who have wanted detail about our time down there, we have had a home and a car given to us, this will afford some luxury for our family as we will have running water, electricity and beds. This will allow us to take care of ourselves and our children as we adjust to the new culture. We will be working primarily in a town called Bomet, where I served last May when I went. We have residual income through Zurvita, an amazing network marketing company, who’s product has changed our lives and now allows us to assist in changing others and providing a residual income that we are able to  sustain ourselves, as well as my Mentoring and Healing business. I will be able to sustain some clientele as we will have wifi access and I do most of my appointments over Skype and Zoom.  We are grateful to 100 Humanitarians, who we are representing, who started the projects and provides for the supplies through donations.  If you want more information on the projects and to see what 100 Humanitarians is about, go to http://www.100humanitarians.com.  Most of all we want you to know that we trust in our God that has directed us to take this leap and continually places people in our path that support the cause and the work.  We understand and testify that God is truly our provider and it is in Him that we put our trust.  This is a faith walk, always has been and always will be. We wouldn’t want it any other way as we know that it is by faith that we grow close to Christ and are able to work out our salvation with Him.

Thanks for letting me share my heart with you!  Love you all!  Please feel free to post questions below and I will answer them the best that I can.  Much love to you…..until next time.  Stay tuned….the journey just keeps going and in some ways….its just begun.

You can also follow us on FB @ https://www.facebook.com/humanitariansRus/  Or  Send Donations to: https://www.youcaring.com/mcmurdofamilymission

Anita! Just one of our friends in Kenya!

The Illusion called FEAR

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So as I have been sitting quiet and still today, asking myself, “what do you really want to do today?”  The simple answer comes….”write”.  I love to write because I get to see the deepest thoughts in my heart and the wisdom of divine consciousness come through, I learn as I write, I find joy as I write and I am passionate about delivering messages of truth that inspire and truly make a difference.  So thanks for being the audience and thank you for your feedback, I love it!

FEAR has been the subject of my latest webinars as well as my personal journey of understanding and moving through.  I have been ravaged by fear as well as been on the other side with complete faith and love.  I have learned its actually embracing fear and expressing deep gratitude for it , that I have found the greatest peace and stepped into great personal power. See, in love, there is no resistance and it is the resistance that fear creates that we struggle and bow down to, because it is in direct opposition with the deepest part of each one of us: divine light and truth.  Fear knows no bounds, fear is rooted in lies, it’s purpose is to move it’s victim to react, thus giving up the space to truly act. Fear is based on the illusion of what we can only see and tries to knock us off base of what we feel, see and know based on faith. So here’s the deal….if you know that fear is based in lies, therein is one tool to overcoming. I’ve learned when fear rears its ugly head, most of the time it attacts my self worth, striving to create self doubt and so in this I have begun to say…”oh thank you, I can see that I am really honoring myself right now, I must be truly on the best path and I must be being so courageous because you are trying to convince me otherwise.”  Thank you for showing me that I am right where I need to be, thank you for showing up to help me be strong.”  I have found when I actually call the fear out, look at it in the face, acknowledge that I heard it and then express gratitude, it puts me back into power, choosing and acting and it diffuses the power it may have had over me!

Fear is an illusion in the sense that fear is only based in the past, in patterns of the past, in the worst and on a perspective, it does not consider light and truth and definitely does not focus on the now and the Present Conscious of Now. It’s in the now, where true power lies, for when we stay in the now, in the present, we realize that we get to choose, we get to choose something different, that we actually have power over ourselves and our destiny. Fear wants to get us to believe that we dont have control, that we have no choice, that we are shameful, bad, wrong and evil. Complete opposite of the truth. FEAR will bring up things from the past and twist it to look hopeless. When we bring FEAR into the Light of Gratitude, Love and Embrace, the battle is won!  And so my friends…..here is the call:  Kick Fear in the Rear by Embracing it and Thanking it.  Stand in the gift you have been given to choose, step into that power boldly and make a commitment to yourself to let FEAR no more dictate your state of being and consciousness.  Make a commitment to yourself to gain as many tools as possible and use them in exposing this illusion in your life so that you can step into greater freedom one step at a time.  Much love to you….God bless.

Freedom

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Today is Independence Day where we celebrate Freedom from our Oppressors. My question is: How many of us are truly free? Are you free in Body, Mind and Spirit? Are you free from your “oppressors”?  Who are your oppressors? It’s different for every body actually.  Today I ponder on the true gift of Freedom and where it really comes from and how it is attained. This a gift that everyone, no matter what country you live in, has access to and the ability to cultivate. Before I continue, I want to acknowledge that there is real slavery happening in our world right now. I do want to acknowledge, at the same time, that there is bondage happening on a deeper level that we may not be completely aware of, that is the bondage of our minds and spirits. Freedom from that bondage comes in and through Jesus Christ, the Savior and Redeemer of this World. I’m talking about the bondage of unforgiveness, hatred, anger, fear, addiction, jealously…..the energy and attitudes that take us away from peace, joy, love, kindness and walking with the Spirit of Christ. I am realizing there are so many of us that are still chained by the experience of trauma and abuse, shame, guilt, victimization.  These are the real oppressors in our lives. Sometimes I think we get so distracted by what is going on in the outside world, that we don’t realize that our inner world is in complete dishevel and bondage. When in fact, the reason that the world is in bondage is because individuals are in bondage….spiritual bondage. Some of us continue to move forward in the same negative, judgmental attitude of our ancestors and continue to heap the same onto our children. Abuse, Addictions, Violence are at an all time high because of the personal spiritual bondage of the individual. Satan has got us so distracted by outward acts of others that we don’t even realize our own state of mind and heart. So my question today is, are you really free? Are you free in your own heart and mind? Are you able to create the space for love and forgiveness and acceptance within yourself? Can you stand in your own truth, right, belief and power when the storms come? Can you stay at peace when there are tumultuous things happening all around? Do you feel you are in control of your own life, emotions, state of being?  This freedom that I am talking about comes in and through Jesus Christ….his LOVE.  It is through feeling His Love and partaking of this His Gift through the Atonement, that we are truly free. It is by surrendering the things that we do not have control over, the hurt, the pain, the envying and the strifes that make room for His love to enter in, if we will ask and choose Him.  His Spirit inside of us brings, peace that passes understanding, grace and strength beyond our own, love unfeigned. This is true freedom.

I had an experience today, that sparked this thought process. Many of you know that my husband and I are separated again and striving to find peace within the new boundary of this relationship. It has been very stormy at times, yelling, screaming, calling names, manipulation, emotional pain and grief. I have experienced these things as well as he has, but something happened today. This morning I made a choice to love, I asked Christ to be in me and to help me and I was determined to come from a space of love and peace and understanding. We were able to spend part of the day all together, and I was able to stay in peace and love, even when emotional challenges were presented. We were able to enjoy being together as a family. I learned that this is freedom. Regardless of what anyone does or says, I get to choose and Christ is by my side to assist me.  Each one of us has the capacity to choose this, to step out of bondage and into freedom.  It is my hope today as we are celebrating freedom, that we choose into personal spiritual freedom for ourselves and our families. That we allow Love to be our Head. That we put away the weapons of war that we rage on each other and on our own selves and that we choose into the freedom that peace, love and joy brings. Christ is the author of these. So Happy Independance Day, I pray you partake of the freedom that is so freely given in so many ways through Jesus Christ, our Lord. God Bless you all!

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The Father of Us All

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Last night as I was pondering and looking towards today, thinking of it being Father’s day, a strong desire to honor my Father in Heaven swept over me.  It is difficult to find the words to express the deep love I have for Him. He is my Father I am born of Him and I feel this to my very core, so much so that I am overwhelmed with tears as His Holy Spirit testifies to my spirit, that, yes, I AM His daughter, we are ALL His children. I have felt this even more in the past few months than at any other time. I have drawn near to Him; I have asked to be able to see his face in my mind, to remember his spirit and how it feels to be in His presence. As I have done this, feelings of intense love, gentle kindness and strength have washed over me. I have seen his face in my mind’s eye and when I pray I see us sitting face to face and having a conversation. Through challenges I have learned to draw near to him, to lean into him to trust in him, and have felt him near, leading, guiding me and hearing every heartfelt prayer, including the silent ones.

I feel strongly to testify that our Father in Heaven is not only kind and gentle, but oh, so merciful and leads and guides us with all the tender feelings of a parent. We are little children to Him and he wants nothing more than our eternal happiness and joy. I testify that He is ever present and that He is in the details, what is important to us and what matters to us, matters to Him. Just as parents, what matters to our children, matters to us and we go the distance to assist and love our children. It is no different with Him. Our Father in Heaven pours into us, just as we pour into our own children; He is concerned for us and in the details, just as we are with our own children. He is not a vengeful God, He is not an angry God, these are misinterpretations of Him….for truly God is Love. He is meek and in this He upholds the standard of truth, for He is Truth, He is light and my friends…..He is Love, oh, is He love.

As one, who has been battered and scarred by men and by my own choices, at times, living in the pit of sin, I have found that His arms are ever outstretched, ever present and standing side by side with His Son, Jesus Christ, ready to save. Whatever the voice that says He is not real, that He is not available, that He is judgmental and partial towards his people, this is not the voice of truth. For anything that would strive to strip of us our right to His kingdom, our right as His children to call on is his name, anything that would strive to cause variance between us and him, truly is not of Him. Satan is cunning; He knows that our joy and our strength, our faith and our abundance lie in our constant communication and close relationship with Him. Satan would do anything to separate us from the Love of God. My invitation is this: Let us reach out to Him, let us do all in our power to bridge the gap that may have been created. He is present, He is all powerful and He is all loving and He is personal. This I do know, that when we turn to Him and when we partner with Him and when we let Him guide our lives, we will have peace and power and direction far beyond anything that man could ever offer. WE can have peace here on earth and it is through our relationship with Deity. It is coming again to know and remember God as our Father, that we come to know ourselves and to know how to handle the relationships in our lives.

I ponder the depth of His love that He would sacrifice His only Begotten Son. He gave Christ to the world, knowing how His Son would be treated and what the mission would be. Yet, Father’s love is so deep, so expansive, that He was willing to let his Beloved go through such pain, so that we could return back to him.  He is calling after us, like a shepherd calls after his sheep, the shepherd knows each sheep by name, we are his little lambs and he is watching over us and calling after us. I speak boldly in hopes that the truth will awaken something in those reading, a remembrance. A remembrance that we are all brothers and sisters, we all belong to this Father in Heaven and that by serving and loving one another we can come to know of Him also. I love my Father, He is my strength and my guide, the Love in my Life and by Him and through His Son I will ever stand. Who stands with me?

Happy Fathers Day.

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My Miracle

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I’ve had many miracles in my life and just recently an outpouring of them as our little family prepares to go to Kenya Africa to Mentor Families as part of a humanitarian project. First, I just want to testify of a truth, when you put God first and you are on His errand and it is His will, all things work together for your good. All things flow and when you replace fear with faith, Miracles happen!

So our family goes to Kenya on the 27th of May to serve the families of Kenya, to learn from them as well as teach them principles and skills that will allow them greater freedom in thinking and producing. I have the heart of a humanitarian, and have known since I was 18 that I wanted to travel the world and give service of this kind. Africa is the beginning of this for our family, because I’ve also known that we are a “missionary” family, we serve. My children, ages 9 and 10 have been working hard to earn funds and now it is coming down to the wire and we need to get plane tickets and passports, as well as pay a few fees for the travel, needless to say we need miracles.

It was this mindset that I went into the week last week, willing to sell the furniture we own as well as anything we did not really need. On Saturday, it was my 3rd weekend in a row that I did a yard sale from donated items of others.  It was slow that day and I just kept praying and believing. It was getting in the late afternoon and we had only had a few visitors and  a few donations. My sons friend came over and I began to just talk with the Dad, for some reason, I just began to share what we were doing and explaining to him the purpose of the yard sale and our mission to Africa.  He listened politely, said good bye and I continued on  my way,  starting to clean up from the yard sale and taking some items back to a donation center. When I returned, I found him looking at the remaining items, he had picked a pair of boots and a pizza card and asked if he could by them. He handed me a wad of cash and explained that he felt prompted to give his money that he was saving for a guitar. He is a music therapist and his guitar broke and he was saving for another, but felt prompted by God to give it to me.  I thanked him with tears in my eyes and we talked a bit about his work, then he left. I never looked at the amount of cash while we were talking, after he left, I began to count it…100, 200, 300. 300 Dollars!  I bowed my head and cried. Praised the Lord and then went on with my day with a spring in my step.  Well, it didn’t end there, later that evening, this same man came to pick up his daughter. He asked for me at the door and then proceeded to hand me another wad of cash. He said “God didn’t tell me to give you some of the guitar money, He asked me to give all of it,”  I was stunned, I didn’t even know what to say. After he left all I could do was give God thanks.

The next day was Sunday. I was late for my meetings, so I went to another. Spirit prompted me to stand up and share my miracle and testify of miracles and that God hears and answers prayers. I spoke so clearly and with power and when I sat down, I had the impression to ask that it touch peoples hearts and that they would want to assist. That was not my intention in sharing, it was purely to share the love and miracles of God, but I know that when we follow promptings, we are blessed. Sure enough, after the meeting, an elderly woman approached me with a note that read: “come by at 3:00, we will help you with your mission.”  I praised the Lord and greeted another woman, asking me if I knew if the Dad that donated to us was in need of a guitar, because she had one that she wasn’t using and wanted to see if he could use it! Oh Goodness, another miracle! Names were given and I went on my way feeling so humbled and excited.

When 3:00 came around I made my way to the woman’s house and was greeted warmly and handed a check for $500. In a day I had received over $1000 in donations!  My friends, God is so good and He desires to bless us with all that we stand in need of, He hears and answers every prayer, this I can testify. When we give we are blessed and the Lord takes care of us!  As you read this today and if you feel inspired, I invite you to assist us by donating today.  We are still in need of $3000 for flights so that we can travel to Kenya to do the work. Thank you for your love and support and for taking the time to let me share my story of miracles and faith in Christ. God bless you today as you go about in faith doing good for others.

Here is the link for donations: http://bit.ly/1XWu3VN

Go Here to see the work we will be doing in Kenya: http://www.100humanitarians.com

 

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Eye Single

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Sometimes the greatest teaching moments in my life come from joy instead of pain, yesterday it was the latter.  A thought came to my mind that has changed my perspective and given me key to greater joy and peace and I wanted to share it with you.

Yesterday morning I failed to act on an opportunity that was a direct answer to prayer. Instead of embracing it and praising the Lord, I judged it, analyzed the situation and justified myself for not going. By the time afternoon came around, I had created a big ball of shame inside of me. I turned to the Lord and the scriptures for insight. Interestingly enough, the same scripture I had read earlier in the morning before I had completely made the decision, is the same scripture that stood out. It was the one about keeping our eye single to the glory of God. As I read the scripture I pondered for a bit and the thought came that God was blessing me that day and  all the time!  Me keeping my eye single to Him is choosing to see the constant flow of blessings from Him and thanking Him and being conscious of His constant care in my life daily, moment to moment and  expressing gratitude, accepting every good gift that comes my way and not judging it! I learned  that part of keeping our eye single to Him is not getting distracted by all the negative voices in this world and by worry and fear, it means keeping our seeing open and focused on how God is blessing us each day.  I realized that God is so good and all He desires is to bless His children and He IS constantly, He is always at work answering prayers. It’s us that chooses not to see it or to doubt that we could be loved that much and deserving of good things moment to moment.  It changed my perspective about God, my Father and how he truly feels about me. I realize, I don’t have to make things happen, I just need to receive and accept what God is already  given or giving in the moment!  Complete Paradigm Shift…..AWESOME! Today I am  proactively looking for His tender mercies and Him answering my prayers and expressing gratitude for all things!  It’s quieted the critical voices in my head and I feel so much lighter. God is so Good!  Happy Saturday!