As I am preparing to uproot my family and move to another location, alone….I am coming to understand and appreciate more and more the counsel from God to “be still and know that I am God.” I woke up this morning feeling a great amount of anxiety because things were not working out the way I wanted and I felt that things were unraveling before me, that I was not going to get to where I wanted to go. The fighter in me began to rise up my thoughts began something like this, ” I will be moving this week come hell or high water, I don’t care what I have to do, this will happen!” And my anxiety grew and I could not feel the spirit of the Lord with me, I hate that feeling! So I began to get still inside, quieting my thoughts and striving to connect back with my heart. I began to speak to myself again “You are in the Lord’s hands, he will help you and watch over you. Maybe this is all happening for a reason. Let him guide you, go with the flow. ”
It has been a year now since I wrote this and on that day, I did move forward, my children and I, with my cousins help, moved 2 hours away and started our new life. It has been a journey of learning and I have been a witness of many miracles. God sustained us and opened doors that day, just as He has every day since. He has sent people at needed times and Angels to uplift, sustain and edify me and my family. He has blessed us with money out of no where and opportunities for more. To this day, I continue to learn that God speaks to us in many different ways, but the most powerful way is when He speaks directly to our hearts in a way that we must be still to hear and know.
I’ve come to understand that being still means that I quiet my mind, I stop thinking and I just quiet everything in my body and feel. When I do this, it’s when I can feel Him so near and in a quiet but powerful way He speaks right to my heart. I have noticed that knowing this has given me so much strength and direction in the mist of confusion. I know that if I can get quiet and look into my heart, He will be there and I know it is Him because only He can speak to the heart, my spirit. His still small voice, cuts through the loud confusion and fear and anxiety quickly. His voice is gentle, direct and brings peace and a feeling of overall well being.
“Being still” means that we don’t react to the voices of fear and doubt and negativity that surround us and bombard our minds on a consistent basis. God knows when we get still, we are putting ourselves in a place of hearing and receiving, its when we can receive clearly and then move forward with power. Getting still requires us to use our agency in a powerful way in the midst of confusion, confusion is of the devil, he wants us to get caught up in reacting. When we react to fear and anxiety, we give Satan power over us, but when we make the choice to get still in the midst of confusion, we are taking a very powerful stand for ourselves and God. We are disengaging from the confusion that is of Satan, we are saying “I see you Satan, I know what this is and I am not going to participate and you cannot have power over me.” When we choose to get still and seek God, we are showing forth true power and inviting God’s power to carry us forward and through. So when you and I begin to feel worry, doubt, fear and anxiety….we need to recognize it for what it is, and then get still, look for God, invite Him into our hearts and receive what He has to give. God truly lives, is over all and offers His love and peace always in every moment. We just need to “be still and know that he IS God.”