As I have returned home from a Zeal For Life business convention, all fired up and ready to go, ready to move mountains in myself and in others, I realize fear is the number one obstacle that keeps me from moving forward. I have a new motto now….”do the thing you fear!” This has given me guidance and helped me day to day build confidence in myself. When we know we are afraid of something, especially of doing something we know we need to do or God has asked us to do, when we move through the fear and do it, we are blessed with confidence. Every day I use this motto as my gauge and my encouragement. If I find myself feeling down, or wandering around in confusion I ask myself “what are you afraid of doing?” “what are you avoiding doing?” and when I identify it, that is what I do that day, the very thing I am avoiding because it is the #1 thing I need to do that day or I would not be getting opposition. As I have been doing this, I realize my confidence and peace grows strong, I feel in control of my life and myself. When we move through our fears and are proactive in facing them we are empowered to be in a place of action to use our agency, instead of being in a place of reaction and feeling controlled. It is liberating to conquer our fears, to move through them and beyond, for God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of courage! So today, I say “rise up!”. Identify your fears, face them and move through them to a life of greater freedom. This life is about acting, creating, growing….the more we get out of our comfort zone, the greater our ability is to be led by an all loving and knowing God and to partner with Him in helping ourselves and others in profound ways. Rise up, face those fears, do the thing you fear and move into freedom and peace!
Have you ever been so afraid of something that you have fought tooth and toenail to not have to do anything to deal with it or step a foot in the direction of resolving it? I believe we all have something like that and I have come to realize that my fear is committing to relationships. Committing to caring, loving, being open and letting others care for me, I have been afraid of jumping in with both feet and giving something everything I’ve got. I have not always been this way, I did this with dance as a youth and in other relationships when I was young, but not that way now. I think its because I have been hurt, like we all have in close relationships, maybe its because I am afraid of failing, or getting in way above my head. Maybe it’s because I am afraid of losing myself and giving away my personal power, like I did in my marriage for 10 years. So the thing I’m talking about is real for me right now, I have a choice of whether to jump in after 9 months of separation and try this marriage thing again to a changed man or go run the other direction and see what else is out there for me. To some, it would seem so simple, cut and dry….I am not some people, I am me and those who know me know that most things are not simple and clear cut in my life. The question that it has really come down to for me to day is this…”Do you really believe in the Lord’s power to heal and change hearts? Do you really believe in the power of the Atonement?…you say you do and here is an opportunity to really show your children and those around you that you do, yet you are struggling, why is that?”
Why am i struggling? I think the question is…Do I really believe? This is what I have come to: I believe that we have challenges in our lives to test and solidify our belief in God and his power and his words…..and I believe this is a test for me. A test to really prove and strengthen my resolve of what I truly believe. I believe in the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, I believe that when we really come to Him humbled and ready to give him our hearts and really ready to change, we are blessed with the strength to do so, through the Atonement. I do believe the more we come to Jesus, the stronger and purer we become. I do believe we all have the capacity to become new in Jesus Christ. I have in many different ways, so why couldn’t my husband….and who am I to judge him or to cause a stumbling block for him in his humble journey and progression towards his godly self. Doesn’t the Lord simply require a broken heart and a contrite spirit, a willingness to take upon us His name and keep coming to him so we can be changed through his love from the inside out? I prayed for 9 months for this to happen for my husband….doesn’t God live and doesn’t he hear and answer prayers? Yes, yes He does, He did and I am a witness to that.
I feel that we need to be very careful with each other, we need to allow our loved ones to change and believe that when they make the effort to do so and invite their Savior to help them, they can do it. We need to speak life in Jesus to each other. We need to not only lift each other up, but we need to cheer each other on and not create stumbling blocks by holding others to their old ways. Anyone and everyone can change when they come to Jesus and let the blood of His Atonement wash them clean. When they let the all encompassing Love of the Savior touch them to the very core. When they are willing to give up all their sins to know the one and only true Son of God. How can one not be changed when touched to the very core with the all powerful and encompassing love of the Savior of the World? It can happen and does and I have been a witness of this in my own life and now as well as my husband’s……miracles happen to those who believe and I believe in miracles.
As I am preparing to uproot my family and move to another location, alone….I am coming to understand and appreciate more and more the counsel from God to “be still and know that I am God.” I woke up this morning feeling a great amount of anxiety because things were not working out the way I wanted and I felt that things were unraveling before me, that I was not going to get to where I wanted to go. The fighter in me began to rise up my thoughts began something like this, ” I will be moving this week come hell or high water, I don’t care what I have to do, this will happen!” And my anxiety grew and I could not feel the spirit of the Lord with me, I hate that feeling! So I began to get still inside, quieting my thoughts and striving to connect back with my heart. I began to speak to myself again “You are in the Lord’s hands, he will help you and watch over you. Maybe this is all happening for a reason. Let him guide you, go with the flow. ”
It has been a year now since I wrote this and on that day, I did move forward, my children and I, with my cousins help, moved 2 hours away and started our new life. It has been a journey of learning and I have been a witness of many miracles. God sustained us and opened doors that day, just as He has every day since. He has sent people at needed times and Angels to uplift, sustain and edify me and my family. He has blessed us with money out of no where and opportunities for more. To this day, I continue to learn that God speaks to us in many different ways, but the most powerful way is when He speaks directly to our hearts in a way that we must be still to hear and know.
I’ve come to understand that being still means that I quiet my mind, I stop thinking and I just quiet everything in my body and feel. When I do this, it’s when I can feel Him so near and in a quiet but powerful way He speaks right to my heart. I have noticed that knowing this has given me so much strength and direction in the mist of confusion. I know that if I can get quiet and look into my heart, He will be there and I know it is Him because only He can speak to the heart, my spirit. His still small voice, cuts through the loud confusion and fear and anxiety quickly. His voice is gentle, direct and brings peace and a feeling of overall well being.
“Being still” means that we don’t react to the voices of fear and doubt and negativity that surround us and bombard our minds on a consistent basis. God knows when we get still, we are putting ourselves in a place of hearing and receiving, its when we can receive clearly and then move forward with power. Getting still requires us to use our agency in a powerful way in the midst of confusion, confusion is of the devil, he wants us to get caught up in reacting. When we react to fear and anxiety, we give Satan power over us, but when we make the choice to get still in the midst of confusion, we are taking a very powerful stand for ourselves and God. We are disengaging from the confusion that is of Satan, we are saying “I see you Satan, I know what this is and I am not going to participate and you cannot have power over me.” When we choose to get still and seek God, we are showing forth true power and inviting God’s power to carry us forward and through. So when you and I begin to feel worry, doubt, fear and anxiety….we need to recognize it for what it is, and then get still, look for God, invite Him into our hearts and receive what He has to give. God truly lives, is over all and offers His love and peace always in every moment. We just need to “be still and know that he IS God.”
As I was sitting down to write this morning, I asked the Lord, as I always do, to guide my words. I asked that my words would bring comfort and help….this is the title that came to my mind. Now, I’m not a professor of religion and so of course, I won’t be going into all the secular knowledge….or even the scriptural references. If you will indulge me in this post, I feel the desire to share who Jesus is to me.
Jesus is the Son of God, He incarnated God when he came to this world. He is the most gentle, yet powerful being I have ever felt or come to know. His love is kind and consistent, encouraging and all encompassing. He is a loyal and constant friend. He lives in the hearts of those who let him and welcome him. When Jesus is in you, you know it because you have peace, you have love for those around you and even those that you don’t know. You want to be better, be more, do more to help others. Jesus is the friend that never leaves, the constant companion that lifts you up, encourages you and shows you the way when you ask. He speaks very openly and frankly when you ask him for honesty and guidance.
The thing I have come to understand the most about Jesus, is that He is the Savior of the World and He is the Savior because He has literally saved the world and all of us who live in it from an eternal death. To understand this and accept this gift we must come to Him and let Him into our hearts and into our lives. There is no pain or suffering that He does not understand, for He truly did suffer it all and took our personal suffering upon himself in the Garden of Gethsemane and on the Cross of Calvary. He did this so he could be a personal and personable Savior. Because of His loving sacrifice, his willing atonement, He understands each one of us on a level that we cannot comprehend. We can however, come to know him personally through the gift of his personal sacrifice. When we use the gift and power of the Atonement in our daily lives it enables us to become At-One with Christ. We become new, with His power in us we can heal from all manner of physical and spiritual diseases. His enabling power can literally heal every part of us from the inside out.
When I teach my class on the Power of Forgiveness, what i am teaching is what He has taught me, helped me to do and whispered to me over and over again. Christ loves us so much that he wants us to be free in every part of our lives, he wants us to be free from guilt, shame, remorse, fear, hatred, and all those emotions that block out our ability to feel love and peace and goodness. He wants us to be free to create, He wants us to be free from faulty thinking that has been passed down through generations that keeps us trapped in reacting and fog our view of truth daily. All those feelings and negative energies that block out our ability to feel him in our hearts, He wants us to be free, and has provided the way. He is the way! He has walked with me through the pain of childhood sexual abuse, teenage rape, depression, anxiety, homelessness, mental breakdown….and so much more. His love has healed those parts of me that no one could reach, no therapist or medicine could heal. His light and his love are all encompassing, all powerful. He is my one true friend, the one who has seen me through it all, who has carried me triumphant to the other side day in and day out. He is magnificent and in Him….I am magnificent and so are you!
Today, I just invite you, if you do not know Jesus or have not invited him into your life. Do it! You can’t afford not too, He is the One true Source of Light and Love, He is the one who gives and grants miracles, who rescues us from our darkest selves and the darkness around. He is the God that can walk by our side, to lead and guide us. He is the one that you have been looking for every day to rescue you from your own personal hell and to take you to the next level in your life. Jesus Christ is the One…..He is the Savior of the World and my personal savior and yours. My daily prayer is that you come to Him and that I can be a light to show the way to Him. If you already know Him….be the light too and make a difference!
After watching my children open their presents and sitting for a moment to ponder, my heart was touched deeply with the love for mankind. I realize what a privilege and a gift it is to be a part of others lives and to have others be a part of mine, no matter what role they play. I feel that sometimes we do not really realize the significance of each person we have the privilege of meeting and engaging with, negative or positive. Each person has godliness in them, a spark of the divine and so in this we are so blessed to have contact with one another, to have the ability to love and serve God by connecting with each other. I believe we get lost in the negative too much, we get lost in the fear of being judged and in the trap of judging, we hold on to past grudges and we don’t allow ourselves and others around us to change. May I propose that this is the time to let go, let the past be in the past and let whatever has happened to you in your life become a gift to propel you forward with grace and beauty and hope into the future.
In my work, I assist so many to release wounds from the past, deep ones, that have kept them stuck in a cycle of fear, hate, self loathing, abuse, addiction and disease. We talk about how these experiences can truly become gifts because they are what give us the opportunity to learn to overcome, to choose to love, to forgive, to change something dark into Light. The truth is that every part of our lives, every experience is truly a gift, if we will let it be, because of the Atonement of Christ. The gift being that because of the Atonement, the challenges truly are an opportunity to choose whether we want to rise up within ourselves and become strong, loving, forgiving, courageous beings or whether we want to be beaten down victims full of bitterness and self loathing. It is in the experience, the challenge, that the choice is presented, the opportunity is given, the growth comes. The power of the Atonement, pure love, sets us free to learn and to not carry the weight of the experience for longer than is needed. If we could see our lives through God’s eyes, we would realize it is all just a journey to Him, it is all about growth and that it is a blessing if we will let it be….that what happens to us, simply does not change our worth in His eyes. That we are always precious to Him and He wants nothing more for us than to grow into the strong powerful beings that He designed us to be, He understands that for us to do this we must use our agency and so in this, there must be opposition. If we make a shift in our paradigm, the way we see life, the way we see people in our lives, the way we see our experiences…. if we shift to seeing them as gifts for healing, growing, learning and loving, then the way we feel inside will shift.
God made us to be free in our hearts and minds, to be happy and joyful. He provided His Son as a sacrifice so that as we make changes and as we come to Him to do this, we can and will be healed and will move forward in the light and truth of who we really are and what this life is really about. This life is truly a gift, every day is a gift, every experience, every person we have the privilege of coming in contact with. Each experience presents us with the opportunity to choose and to love and to overcome and to serve. Look for the light in each situation….look for the gift, it is there.
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It seems we live day to day just surviving, we encounter so many different stresses and situations that evoke strong emotions in us that we do not know what to do with it all, so we shove it all down, we keep it inside as to be able to “handle” or feel in control of our lives. Eventually we get to a point where we go numb, get depressed or our physical bodies just begin to break down because it literally cannot handle the stress of carrying around all the negative messages, energy and emotions that we are holding onto and stuffing down and hiding within our bodies. There needs to be a release, a place for this negative energy to go to, besides residing in us.
All thoughts, words and emotions are energy, and stay within us if not released. We need to learn to release negative energy and stay clear and balanced on a daily basis. We have got to let go of past guilt, hurt, anger, regrets. We need to bring ourselves into a space of peace, hope and love. That is what the power of forgiveness does. Truly forgiving and continuing in this space brings power of freedom to act, freedom to love, to have more of love and peace and hope in our lives.
So many of us walk around carrying heavy burdens of guilt and shame, regret and remorse. We are beings of light and were not meant to continue to carry and be weighed down by these things. There is a pure Source to which we can turn to that is unconditional Love and that has the power to help us to put all these negative energies off and heal. Part of that source resides within us, it is the power we have to choose. We have the power within us to change the way we go about life, the way we handle our lives, we have the power to heal and move into a space of peace and love and productivity. God asks us to move into this space, He provides tools and help to do this. Forgiveness is the power of freedom, when we forgive we are letting go of the negative, we are releasing it’s power over us, we are creating space for love and life within us.
So many of us walk around punishing ourselves for past choices, we think somehow that we cannot be forgiven for supposed mistakes, we deem them so bad that we continually dwell on and carry the burden, punishing ourselves and thinking that this is what we have to do to make recompense. What a lie! The truth is, we are here to learn, the way has been provided for us, through the Atonement of Christ, to be able to put off the negative that comes from poor choices and move into a place of greater power. These experiences are here to teach us and to provide us with wisdom and motivation and power to move into a higher way of living. Trying to make recompense is only hurting ourselves and others that we love and keeping us from becoming the powerful person that we are and were meant to become. We cannot move forward in a space of fear, punishment and regret. Only in a space of freedom, love and peace.
The tool of forgiveness, if used sincerely and frequently allows us to release all the “garbage” built up inside and can help us maintain a state of balance, clarity and peace. We must connect to God to help and direct us in this. His power is love and is healing, and He gives us strength where we lack. Whenever we forgive, we are bringing ourselves close to God, openness to light and truth and well being. We are being’s of light and truth, darkness is foreign to us and offends our souls and well as God. We forgive ourselves because in this we are saying, “I’m sorry for allowing this to hurt my spirit of godliness, I’m sorry for letting this foreign energy reside in a place of God.” Forgiveness is one of they keys to spiritual freedom. Love yourself enough to let go of the past, move into the present and use forgiveness to help you with this. Remember who you are and begin to stand in that….today!
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I am up early this morning because I could not sleep. I did not meet my business and personal goal last night and it is eating at me. I have had to dig deep this morning and ask myself again, “what are you going to do?” You know, I have been walking around in fear for the longest time, hiding my heart from the world and even my face from some of my loved ones. I have been walking around ashamed for a failed marriage, ashamed that I am barely making ends meet, ashamed that my children are struggling and that I am struggling to homeschool them….ashamed that I feel that I am so different and this means some how that I am a failure. Well, this is me standing up and fighting back! I am learning that one of the greatest characteristics we can nurture is the ability to persevere. I believe that perseverance is the key to success. No one is perfect and every one is different. The only thing that matters is if you are picking yourself up each day and striving to do a little bit better than the next and that you keep working towards your goals….your dreams. I have a dream, I have many dreams, in fact, some that I’m sure others would say I am crazy and can’t achieve them. I say watch me, because I have learned time and time again that if I am willing to continue to move forward and that I invite the Lord to help me, anything is possible. It is possible because of those 2 factors….God’s Power and the ability to persevere. And I am grateful that God has blessed me with the ability to persevere, He has given it to all of us. No matter what your situation or circumstance, no matter what obstacles you come up against….keep moving forward towards your dreams and always have a brightness of hope in God.