Personal Power

The other day I found myself driving down the highway, listening to Alanis Morsette and crying!  As I listened, the words struck me to the very core:

That I would be good even if I did nothing,
That I would be good even if i got the thumbs down,
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick,
that I would be good even if i gained ten pounds….

that i would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that i would be grand if I was not all knowing….

I painfully realized that somewhere along my life journey I picked up on the lie that who I am is  not good enough.  Not only did I let that lie sit in my mind, but I took it into my heart and believed it to be true.  I have been spending years playing that out and pushing myself beyond exhaustion to prove that I AM good enough.   I have wasted so much time and energy aligning myself with others expectations, judgements and limitations. I have been consumed with concern of how my actions look to other people and striving to please others so that I could have the reward of recognition and feeling good enough.  The sad thing is….there has been no change or reward, only the continued feelings of  worthlessness, hurt and shame.  I’ve gone the other way also and  have played it small so I wouldn’t make others uncomfortable or cause them to shun me!  No wonder I have felt crazy, depressed or both for so many years!

Why? Why have I done this?  I don’t know all the reasons….but this I do know….. I’m Done.  I’m taking back my own personal power, the power to choose who I want to be, and to respect who I am already. I’m choosing to love myself for who I am, and see myself thru God’s eyes. I ‘m choosing to not let others define who I am, my worth or my capabilities. I’m choosing to be more concerned with loving and accepting myself unconditionally and allowing God to work through me, not limiting myself or what He can do.  I no longer choose to be  limited by other people’s negative perceptions and opinions, and I no longer choose to believe the Lie that I am not good enough.

I believe that there is great power in realizing that a change just starts with a simple act of choosing.  I have been given the god given right and power to choose, we all have.  I believe that when I come to the God in Heaven and ask him to walk with me and to guide me and to show me who I am in his eyes and fill me with his unconditional love, He will.  I have come to understand that this is where my strength to do hard things and my ability to seperate myself from untrue beliefs and others false perceptions and judgements will come from, through Christ. When I choose God first, and I follow His voice and His counsel and I allow myself to see myself through His eyes, I am truly free.  Free to choose who I want to be, free from others definitions and opinions, free from shame, guilt and untruths. His love heals me and sets me free to be my best self.  I’m striving to reach higher, use my personal power to CHOOSE my actions and turning to God for strength to do these things.  I choose to believe that I AM GOOD ENOUGH! What are you choosing to believe today?

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Making A Difference

Today I am reflecting on my many blessings and my heart is full of gratitude as I reflect back on where I’ve been and where I am now and the miracles that have come about in just a few short months. As some of you may know, I am just coming out of 15 years of severe depression and anxiety.  This has been quite a journey for me and the Lord has blessed me with many different tools to help along the way.  The one tool that has proven to be the most effective and life changing is my Zeal Wellness.  Yes, it is a fabulous whole food, nutritional supplement that has rocked my world and changed it dramatically for the better.  Where there was no energy, over eating, foggy thinking, low tolerance for any kind of challenge, lack of sleep and complete shut down when having to make more than simple decisions…..there is now a happy, balanced, full of energy, skinnier, completely functioning on a higher level woman!  YAY!  So to say I’m excited about this drink and the company and all its possibilities to help people…..is a complete understatement!

Now, I’m just a lady on a mission and I am standing on this platform and asking for your help.  I have a goal to help 100 people before Christmas! I want to introduce, educate and provide friends, family and strangers an opportunity to get Zeal into their bodies.  As you are reading this, I know there is someone that you each know, if not just yourself, that is in great need of a way to better health and wellness….send them my way.  You may know someone who has lost hope for a brighter future, who financially is struggling and has been for some time, and just needs and wants to be financially free…..send them my way.  You may be someone who as felt that there is a greater purpose for you, you have a burning desire to help people and to see others lives change…..contact me!  If you just want and need to be a part of an amazing group of people that care about you, believe in you and want to see you achieve your greatest aspirations…..call me!  I can not find the words to express my deep sense of gratitude for a loving Father in Heaven who has brought these blessings into my life and provided me with an opportunity to do the same for others.  I  feel so blessed and want to share with others.  Please help me in making a difference! The address for my website is below:

http://www.coachjenn.zealforlife.com

In celebration of the holiday and as an incentive to act now, there is a huge promotion going on for the next 3 days…Ask me about it! God Bless and Happy Thanksgiving.