The Illusion called FEAR

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So as I have been sitting quiet and still today, asking myself, “what do you really want to do today?”  The simple answer comes….”write”.  I love to write because I get to see the deepest thoughts in my heart and the wisdom of divine consciousness come through, I learn as I write, I find joy as I write and I am passionate about delivering messages of truth that inspire and truly make a difference.  So thanks for being the audience and thank you for your feedback, I love it!

FEAR has been the subject of my latest webinars as well as my personal journey of understanding and moving through.  I have been ravaged by fear as well as been on the other side with complete faith and love.  I have learned its actually embracing fear and expressing deep gratitude for it , that I have found the greatest peace and stepped into great personal power. See, in love, there is no resistance and it is the resistance that fear creates that we struggle and bow down to, because it is in direct opposition with the deepest part of each one of us: divine light and truth.  Fear knows no bounds, fear is rooted in lies, it’s purpose is to move it’s victim to react, thus giving up the space to truly act. Fear is based on the illusion of what we can only see and tries to knock us off base of what we feel, see and know based on faith. So here’s the deal….if you know that fear is based in lies, therein is one tool to overcoming. I’ve learned when fear rears its ugly head, most of the time it attacts my self worth, striving to create self doubt and so in this I have begun to say…”oh thank you, I can see that I am really honoring myself right now, I must be truly on the best path and I must be being so courageous because you are trying to convince me otherwise.”  Thank you for showing me that I am right where I need to be, thank you for showing up to help me be strong.”  I have found when I actually call the fear out, look at it in the face, acknowledge that I heard it and then express gratitude, it puts me back into power, choosing and acting and it diffuses the power it may have had over me!

Fear is an illusion in the sense that fear is only based in the past, in patterns of the past, in the worst and on a perspective, it does not consider light and truth and definitely does not focus on the now and the Present Conscious of Now. It’s in the now, where true power lies, for when we stay in the now, in the present, we realize that we get to choose, we get to choose something different, that we actually have power over ourselves and our destiny. Fear wants to get us to believe that we dont have control, that we have no choice, that we are shameful, bad, wrong and evil. Complete opposite of the truth. FEAR will bring up things from the past and twist it to look hopeless. When we bring FEAR into the Light of Gratitude, Love and Embrace, the battle is won!  And so my friends…..here is the call:  Kick Fear in the Rear by Embracing it and Thanking it.  Stand in the gift you have been given to choose, step into that power boldly and make a commitment to yourself to let FEAR no more dictate your state of being and consciousness.  Make a commitment to yourself to gain as many tools as possible and use them in exposing this illusion in your life so that you can step into greater freedom one step at a time.  Much love to you….God bless.

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Love- A Call to Action

As I sit and ponder and meditate this morning, thoughts and impressions flow into my mind. My prayers are not for me but for my brothers and sisters upon this earth at this time. Flashes of the women and children being torn away from each other, Fathers being beaten down! The feelings run deep in me as I pray for their deliverance from such evil. I pray that angels surround them and comfort them as I have come to understand that the distance between heaven and earth is really next to none, for the things of the spirit, which we cannot see, truly are all around us. So…how do we call upon the powers of heaven and work in harmony with the unseen angels all around us that walk this earth for the soul purpose of guiding, directing, protecting and comforting the human family? First, we must realize that truly we are children of the most High God, Sons and Daughters of the Powerful Creator and Source of Love and Light. We must come to understand that because of the gift of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, we have been bought with a price and claimed by Deity and in this it is our right to ask for all that we stand in need of for our family, our nation, this world and ourselves, especially as we cultivate the pure desire to love and serve each other. Because of Christ we can become free in our hearts and minds from the blood and sins of this generation and step into a place of power and freedom, unlike this world alone can offer. Freedom is not something that happens on the outside but on the inside 1st. Our Freedom was bought with the price of Christ’s blood which was shed for all and was brought upon him through his willingness to truly feel, experience and carry it all. When He carried the cross, it was not just the physical burden that He carried but more so the sins and sorrows of the world…the cry of every man, woman and child, the deep pain and hatred of the perpetrator, murderer and sinner, the depressed and self loathing mother, the overburdened and afraid father. He bore it all, magnified a hundredfold because of the purity of His soul, to carry such darkness literally was death. He did this purely out of love and His desire to be our Advocate, to be able to walk by our side in this life, to be our friend and our Savior, to embody the love that we need to move all sin, barriers and boundaries.
So, what is the answer to the problems of the world…LOVE. Love for ourselves and love for one another. It seems so simple, too simple…peace, love, happiness. You look at any situation, on a big scale or a small…the problem is a lack of pure love. Love for oneself, for God and for fellow men. Pure love heals all wounds, it empowers us to Forgive and to move forward in greater peace. It places us in a space to be creators of our lives instead of reactors, it gives us courage to stand and fight for our rights when needed. You want to help the world, tap into Love and then ask what you can do and do it! Love IS THE ANSWER.
So this is my call, my call to action! Do something today and every day for the next 30 days to show LOVE. It can be something simple and small or something huge and gigantic, either way you are changing the planet, because when you choose love and you do something to spread that, it creates ripples throughout the earth. It creates a chain reaction, so in this you can literally change the world. So be a creator today and change the world, one action of Love at a time.

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Relationships and Abundance

I have been on a journey to understand how to step into the flow of abundance, especially when it comes to money. Forrest and I have struggled with money management and the making of it through-out our entire marriage and now we are beginning to understand that creating clear connected relationships are directly connected with having a flow of abundance and a good relationship with money. Life is about relationships and the more abundant our relationships the more that shows and comes together in every area of our lives. We can work hard for what we have, but if we are stepping on people and destroying relationships along the way then we are not abundant and we will not appreciate nor keep abundance in our lives. Abundance flows from the inside out, when we are abundant in love and forgiveness and gratitude and faith, we attract more abundance. When we become a resource of love, then we attract resources. Whatever is going on outside of us is a reflection of what is going on inside. If we want to attract abundance in every form then we must become abundant inside, by connecting with the source of abundance…God. One key is in improving our quality of life by improving our quality of connection with others.
Forgiveness is a big piece in assisting us in mending our relationships. Forgiveness assists us in moving out old negative feelings of anger, hatred, defiance, distrust and other negative emotions so that we can have space inside to replace it with love. Love abounds and is abundant in nature, when we are filled with the Love of God we become the energy of abundance and attract the like. It is up to us to invite abundance into our lives, it is a choice. I invite you to ask yourself what relationships you need to mend, where can you forgive and love and create that abundance inside of you? Including mending the relationship with money, money comes when we truly want it to come and have a desire to use the resource that money is, for good. Think about it in a relationship context, do others want to be around us if they don’t feel wanted or they feel used? It’s the same with money, money is energy, like anything else. We are the ones that determine its value and direction in our lives. We decide if it is going to serve us and allow us to be able to serve others on a big scale or not. We decide.
So today, I challenge you to look at your relationships and see where you can do some mending. Get clear on what your feelings are about money and if you need to change some beliefs around it, then …do it! Begin to create abundance inside of you today. God bless us all as we choose love and forgiveness and step in to the power of creating.
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Victory

To my fellow Christians:
Yesterday I had a good talk with myself and as I was finishing up processing, I had some profound thoughts that I wanted to share. I have been feeling so much pressure to perform and do the things I know the Lord has asked me to do, yet I have not done them yet. Today I realized that it isn’t about me at all, its all about it being His work and He is already victorious and will continue to be victorious, so there is no need to worry or fear. If I don’t step up to the plate, someone else will because His purposes will be fulfilled, because He is in charge and it’s not about determining our worth, or us standing in the way of the work, it has nothing to do with us. We just get to decide whether we want to be a worker or not, and decide what kind of a life we want to create. The fact that we live and love Him is testimony enough, making the choice to come to earth we solidified our standing with Him and so when we invite Him in we have access to all that He offers. This life is purely about learning and creating: learning how to become creators. We need to stop being scared of opposition and stop thinking that Satan has power over us that we don’t have control over. We are all players on a stage, the opposition is simply a catalyst for growth….period. And the adversary only has as much power over us and we give him. Those who have accepted Christ as their Savior and strive each day to remember him and emulate him…..are already victorious, because He was victorious on the cross. This life is not about us, its about something so much bigger…LOVE LEARNING and JOY!

If you feel like your life has just been one drama after another, one challenge after another, one uphill battle after another, just know you are right where you need to be and you have no need to think that you are worthless, that your life is meaningless, that you have accomplished nothing in this battle of life! If you are still breathing, standing and have an inkling of hope and faith….You are victorious! Even if you don’t feel like this today, just know, it’s coming! You are God’s child and he made you to be victorious! Lean on Jesus’s victory! Love you guys! Have a victorious day thru Christ the Lord!

Today is my Birthday

Today is my birthday and so I feel inspired to write what is truly on my heart. I feel the freedom to express whatever I would like as a gift to myself. An inner reflection on paper….those who know me well, know this is my favorite past time. Although I have been silent for some time, my heart is always yearning to write, to express the deep love I have for life, for the many people in my life and most of all for the that one true friend, who is always there for me and has brought me through all things….Jesus.

I’m so grateful to say that my life has not been easy, I have been given many gifts, wrapped in the label of “challenges”. For my challenges, I am grateful, as they have been my opportunities to grow and to know the power of Christ’s love in my life. I love to grow and I see the gift in growing and so I am grateful for my challenges. I am grateful to know that I have a personal friend and Savior, who loves me beyond comprehension and who takes the time to express that love clearly, especially in the moments of my deepest self loathing. Only He knows what to say to me when I find myself lost in the darkness of shame, guilt, grief and disappointment. It is because of His constant care that I am filled with love and have been able to come through so much trauma in my life. I have received complete healing because of Him.

I am grateful for my children, the children, who’s little spirits I saw when going through one of my most darkest times as a teen. My children who whispered to me that they were mine, that I was on the right path and to keep going. And now, who grace my home with their presence and continually challenge me to stay on board with love and patience and kindness.

I am grateful for a husband, who is always challenging me to stay in a space of love and calm. Who goes above and beyond to show loyalty and love in the most adverse circumstances. Who’s presence continually challenges me to love and not judge, accept and not criticize. Thank you.

My life is a gift and I know this because there are so many times that I wanted to take it and have been saved by angels of heaven and earth. So I am grateful for my life, I have been given the opportunity to be able to help people heal in ways that I couldn’t even imagine. To partner with heaven to understand the hearts and souls of many and to assist them in uncovering truth in their own lives and healing from the past. I am grateful that I get to continue this work on an even bigger scale and to see my life dream of creating a healing center coming to fruition.

I am grateful for opposition, for the Advesary, who does His job which allows God’s mighty power to be shown in even greater capacity.

I am grateful to be a woman and have the versatility of being soft and kind, yet strong and powerful. I love my body and this has not always been the case, given I was sexually abused and raped at young ages and rejected my body and self for so many years. I love who I am, I am grateful for the beautiful body God gave me to be able to feel and experience this life to the fullest. To be able to touch and nurture others with love and healing and receive that in return. I love that I am in tune with my body now and that I can hear it when it speaks to me and that I want to hear what it has to say and have a desire to take care of it as the precious gift it is.

I am grateful for my restored health. For a simple solution that God brought into my life that changed my course very quickly and has allowed me to help others in ways that I could not imagine.

I am blessed to know so many amazing people who have blessed my life in countless ways. It is the people in my life that make it so beautiful. I love getting to meet new people, getting to connect on different levels. It is in the connecting with others, even to the soul, that brings me the greatest joy and fulfillment. Thank you to many for allowing me to be a part of your lives, for opening up your soul to me and for allowing me to be an instrument in ministering to you in the ways that you need.

I am grateful for Angels. Thank you my Angels for being by my side always, lifting and guiding, inspiring and speaking.

I am thankful for this day, for the opportunity to reflect on my life, to reconnect with friends and loved ones and to have another year to love, learn and serve. To those who are reading this, thank you for being a witness to those blessings.

Do you believe in Miracles?

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Have you ever been so afraid of something that you have fought tooth and toenail to not have to do anything to deal with it or step a foot in the direction of resolving it? I believe we all have something like that and I have come to realize that my fear is committing to relationships. Committing to caring, loving, being open and letting others care for me, I have been afraid of jumping in with both feet and giving something everything I’ve got.  I have not always been this way, I did this with dance as a youth and in other relationships when I was young, but not that way now.  I think its because I have been hurt, like we all have in close relationships, maybe its because I am afraid of failing, or getting in way above my head. Maybe it’s because I am afraid of losing myself and giving away my personal power, like I did in my marriage for 10 years.  So the thing I’m talking about is real for me right now, I have a choice of whether to jump in after 9 months of separation and try this marriage thing again to a changed man or go run the other direction and see what else is out there for me.  To some, it would seem so simple, cut and dry….I am not some people, I am me and those who know me know that most things are not simple and clear cut in my life.  The question that it has really come down to for me to day is this…”Do you really believe in the Lord’s power to heal and change hearts?  Do you really believe in the power of the Atonement?…you say you do and here is an opportunity to really show your children and those around you that you do, yet you are struggling, why is that?”

Why am i struggling?  I think the question is…Do I really believe?  This is what I have come to: I believe that we have challenges in our lives to test and solidify our belief in God and his power and his words…..and I believe this is a test for me.  A test to really prove and strengthen my resolve of what I truly believe.  I believe in the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, I believe that when we really come to Him humbled and ready to give him our hearts and really ready to change, we are blessed with the strength to do so, through the Atonement. I do believe the more we come to Jesus, the stronger and purer we become.  I do believe we all have the capacity to become new in Jesus Christ. I have in many different ways, so why couldn’t my husband….and who am I to judge him or to cause a stumbling block for him in his humble journey and progression towards his godly self.  Doesn’t the Lord simply require a broken heart and a contrite spirit, a willingness to take upon us His name and keep coming to him so we can be changed through his love from the inside out?  I prayed for 9 months for this to happen for my husband….doesn’t God live and doesn’t he hear and answer prayers? Yes, yes He does, He did and I am a witness to that.

I feel that we need to be very careful with each other, we need to allow our loved ones to change and believe that when they make the effort to do so and invite their Savior to help them, they can do it.  We need to speak life in Jesus to each other.  We need to not only lift each other up, but we need to cheer each other on and not create stumbling blocks by holding others to their old ways.  Anyone and everyone can change when they come to Jesus and let the blood of His Atonement wash them clean.  When they let the all encompassing Love of the Savior touch them to the very core. When they are willing to give up all their sins to know the one and only true Son of God. How can one not be changed when touched to the very core with the all powerful and encompassing love of the Savior of the World? It can happen and does and I have been a witness of this in my own life and now as well as my husband’s……miracles happen to those who believe and I believe in miracles.

Be Still

As I am preparing to uproot my family and move to another location, alone….I am coming to understand and appreciate more and more the counsel from God to “be still and know that I am God.” I woke up this morning feeling a great amount of anxiety because things were not working out the way I wanted and I felt that things were unraveling before me, that I was not going to get to where I wanted to go. The fighter in me began to rise up my thoughts began something like this, ” I will be moving this week come hell or high water, I don’t care what I have to do, this will happen!”  And my anxiety grew and I could not feel the spirit of the Lord with me, I hate that feeling! So I began to get still inside, quieting my thoughts and striving to connect back with my heart.  I began to speak to myself again “You are in the Lord’s hands, he will help you and watch over you. Maybe this is all happening for a reason. Let him guide you, go with the flow. ”

It has been a year now since I wrote this and on that day, I did move forward, my children and I, with my cousins help, moved 2 hours away and started our new life.  It has been a journey of learning and I have been a witness of many miracles. God sustained us and opened doors that day, just as He has every day since.  He has sent people at needed times and Angels to uplift, sustain and edify me and my family.  He has blessed us with money out of  no where and opportunities for more. To this day, I continue to learn that God speaks to us in many different ways, but the most powerful way is when He speaks directly to our hearts in a way that we must be still to hear and know.

I’ve come to understand that being still means that I quiet my mind, I stop thinking and I just quiet everything in my body and feel.  When I do this, it’s when I can feel Him so near and in a quiet but powerful way He speaks right to my heart.  I have noticed that knowing this has given me so much strength and direction in the mist of confusion.  I know that if I can get quiet and look into my heart, He will be there and I know it is Him because only He can speak to the heart, my spirit. His still small voice, cuts through the loud confusion and fear and anxiety quickly. His voice is gentle, direct and  brings peace and a feeling of overall well being.

“Being still”  means that we don’t react to the voices of fear and doubt and negativity that surround us and bombard our minds on a consistent basis.  God knows when we get still, we are putting ourselves in a place of hearing and receiving, its when we can receive clearly and then move forward with power. Getting still requires us to use our agency in a powerful way in the midst of confusion, confusion is of the devil, he wants us to get caught up in reacting.  When we react to fear and anxiety, we give Satan power over us, but when we make the choice to get still in the midst of confusion, we are taking a very powerful stand for ourselves and God.  We are disengaging from the confusion that is of Satan, we are saying “I see you Satan, I know what this is and I am not going to participate and you cannot have power over me.”   When we choose to get still and seek God, we are showing forth true power and inviting God’s power to carry us forward and through.   So when you and I begin to feel worry, doubt, fear and anxiety….we need to recognize it for what it is, and then get still, look for God, invite Him into our hearts and receive what He has to give.  God truly lives, is over all and offers His love and peace always in every moment. We  just need to “be still and know that he IS God.”bestill