The Illusion called FEAR

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So as I have been sitting quiet and still today, asking myself, “what do you really want to do today?”  The simple answer comes….”write”.  I love to write because I get to see the deepest thoughts in my heart and the wisdom of divine consciousness come through, I learn as I write, I find joy as I write and I am passionate about delivering messages of truth that inspire and truly make a difference.  So thanks for being the audience and thank you for your feedback, I love it!

FEAR has been the subject of my latest webinars as well as my personal journey of understanding and moving through.  I have been ravaged by fear as well as been on the other side with complete faith and love.  I have learned its actually embracing fear and expressing deep gratitude for it , that I have found the greatest peace and stepped into great personal power. See, in love, there is no resistance and it is the resistance that fear creates that we struggle and bow down to, because it is in direct opposition with the deepest part of each one of us: divine light and truth.  Fear knows no bounds, fear is rooted in lies, it’s purpose is to move it’s victim to react, thus giving up the space to truly act. Fear is based on the illusion of what we can only see and tries to knock us off base of what we feel, see and know based on faith. So here’s the deal….if you know that fear is based in lies, therein is one tool to overcoming. I’ve learned when fear rears its ugly head, most of the time it attacts my self worth, striving to create self doubt and so in this I have begun to say…”oh thank you, I can see that I am really honoring myself right now, I must be truly on the best path and I must be being so courageous because you are trying to convince me otherwise.”  Thank you for showing me that I am right where I need to be, thank you for showing up to help me be strong.”  I have found when I actually call the fear out, look at it in the face, acknowledge that I heard it and then express gratitude, it puts me back into power, choosing and acting and it diffuses the power it may have had over me!

Fear is an illusion in the sense that fear is only based in the past, in patterns of the past, in the worst and on a perspective, it does not consider light and truth and definitely does not focus on the now and the Present Conscious of Now. It’s in the now, where true power lies, for when we stay in the now, in the present, we realize that we get to choose, we get to choose something different, that we actually have power over ourselves and our destiny. Fear wants to get us to believe that we dont have control, that we have no choice, that we are shameful, bad, wrong and evil. Complete opposite of the truth. FEAR will bring up things from the past and twist it to look hopeless. When we bring FEAR into the Light of Gratitude, Love and Embrace, the battle is won!  And so my friends…..here is the call:  Kick Fear in the Rear by Embracing it and Thanking it.  Stand in the gift you have been given to choose, step into that power boldly and make a commitment to yourself to let FEAR no more dictate your state of being and consciousness.  Make a commitment to yourself to gain as many tools as possible and use them in exposing this illusion in your life so that you can step into greater freedom one step at a time.  Much love to you….God bless.

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Victory

To my fellow Christians:
Yesterday I had a good talk with myself and as I was finishing up processing, I had some profound thoughts that I wanted to share. I have been feeling so much pressure to perform and do the things I know the Lord has asked me to do, yet I have not done them yet. Today I realized that it isn’t about me at all, its all about it being His work and He is already victorious and will continue to be victorious, so there is no need to worry or fear. If I don’t step up to the plate, someone else will because His purposes will be fulfilled, because He is in charge and it’s not about determining our worth, or us standing in the way of the work, it has nothing to do with us. We just get to decide whether we want to be a worker or not, and decide what kind of a life we want to create. The fact that we live and love Him is testimony enough, making the choice to come to earth we solidified our standing with Him and so when we invite Him in we have access to all that He offers. This life is purely about learning and creating: learning how to become creators. We need to stop being scared of opposition and stop thinking that Satan has power over us that we don’t have control over. We are all players on a stage, the opposition is simply a catalyst for growth….period. And the adversary only has as much power over us and we give him. Those who have accepted Christ as their Savior and strive each day to remember him and emulate him…..are already victorious, because He was victorious on the cross. This life is not about us, its about something so much bigger…LOVE LEARNING and JOY!

If you feel like your life has just been one drama after another, one challenge after another, one uphill battle after another, just know you are right where you need to be and you have no need to think that you are worthless, that your life is meaningless, that you have accomplished nothing in this battle of life! If you are still breathing, standing and have an inkling of hope and faith….You are victorious! Even if you don’t feel like this today, just know, it’s coming! You are God’s child and he made you to be victorious! Lean on Jesus’s victory! Love you guys! Have a victorious day thru Christ the Lord!

Do The Thing You Fear

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As I have returned home from a Zeal For Life business convention, all fired up and ready to go, ready to move mountains in myself and in others, I realize fear is the number one obstacle that keeps me from moving forward. I have a new motto now….”do the thing you fear!” This has given me guidance and helped me day to day build confidence in myself. When we know we are afraid of something, especially of doing something we know we need to do or God has asked us to do, when we move through the fear and do it, we are blessed with confidence. Every day I use this motto as my gauge and my encouragement. If I find myself feeling down, or wandering around in confusion I ask myself “what are you afraid of doing?” “what are you avoiding doing?” and when I identify it, that is what I do that day, the very thing I am avoiding because it is the #1 thing I need to do that day or I would not be getting opposition. As I have been doing this, I realize my confidence and peace grows strong, I feel in control of my life and myself. When we move through our fears and are proactive in facing them we are empowered to be in a place of action to use our agency, instead of being in a place of reaction and feeling controlled. It is liberating to conquer our fears, to move through them and beyond, for God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of courage! So today, I say “rise up!”. Identify your fears, face them and move through them to a life of greater freedom. This life is about acting, creating, growing….the more we get out of our comfort zone, the greater our ability is to be led by an all loving and knowing God and to partner with Him in helping ourselves and others in profound ways. Rise up, face those fears, do the thing you fear and move into freedom and peace!

Do you believe in Miracles?

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Have you ever been so afraid of something that you have fought tooth and toenail to not have to do anything to deal with it or step a foot in the direction of resolving it? I believe we all have something like that and I have come to realize that my fear is committing to relationships. Committing to caring, loving, being open and letting others care for me, I have been afraid of jumping in with both feet and giving something everything I’ve got.  I have not always been this way, I did this with dance as a youth and in other relationships when I was young, but not that way now.  I think its because I have been hurt, like we all have in close relationships, maybe its because I am afraid of failing, or getting in way above my head. Maybe it’s because I am afraid of losing myself and giving away my personal power, like I did in my marriage for 10 years.  So the thing I’m talking about is real for me right now, I have a choice of whether to jump in after 9 months of separation and try this marriage thing again to a changed man or go run the other direction and see what else is out there for me.  To some, it would seem so simple, cut and dry….I am not some people, I am me and those who know me know that most things are not simple and clear cut in my life.  The question that it has really come down to for me to day is this…”Do you really believe in the Lord’s power to heal and change hearts?  Do you really believe in the power of the Atonement?…you say you do and here is an opportunity to really show your children and those around you that you do, yet you are struggling, why is that?”

Why am i struggling?  I think the question is…Do I really believe?  This is what I have come to: I believe that we have challenges in our lives to test and solidify our belief in God and his power and his words…..and I believe this is a test for me.  A test to really prove and strengthen my resolve of what I truly believe.  I believe in the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, I believe that when we really come to Him humbled and ready to give him our hearts and really ready to change, we are blessed with the strength to do so, through the Atonement. I do believe the more we come to Jesus, the stronger and purer we become.  I do believe we all have the capacity to become new in Jesus Christ. I have in many different ways, so why couldn’t my husband….and who am I to judge him or to cause a stumbling block for him in his humble journey and progression towards his godly self.  Doesn’t the Lord simply require a broken heart and a contrite spirit, a willingness to take upon us His name and keep coming to him so we can be changed through his love from the inside out?  I prayed for 9 months for this to happen for my husband….doesn’t God live and doesn’t he hear and answer prayers? Yes, yes He does, He did and I am a witness to that.

I feel that we need to be very careful with each other, we need to allow our loved ones to change and believe that when they make the effort to do so and invite their Savior to help them, they can do it.  We need to speak life in Jesus to each other.  We need to not only lift each other up, but we need to cheer each other on and not create stumbling blocks by holding others to their old ways.  Anyone and everyone can change when they come to Jesus and let the blood of His Atonement wash them clean.  When they let the all encompassing Love of the Savior touch them to the very core. When they are willing to give up all their sins to know the one and only true Son of God. How can one not be changed when touched to the very core with the all powerful and encompassing love of the Savior of the World? It can happen and does and I have been a witness of this in my own life and now as well as my husband’s……miracles happen to those who believe and I believe in miracles.

Reaching Out

Some of us, when we go thru challenging experiences, pull inward and shut everyone out, and some of us reach out and let others in to help.  I am one who tends to pull in and shut others out because I feel such shame for feelings of anger, hurt, hopelessness. I feel shame if I am not handling the challenge with positiveness and forgiveness and if I am not able to function normally from day to day. I feel guilty if I feel the need to heavily rely on others and for the inability to hold it together at times. but I realize I also feel so unloveable and unworthy of love, feelings that are rooted from my experiences as a child, especially those of sexual abuse and actions that extended from those. It is thru the recent experience of going through a difficult seperation in my marriage  that I realize the healing is in not bearing the burden alone, the healing is in asking others to bear it with you, to help you carry the load, to allow their love to sustain you. I have come to realize that love in all it’s many forms and actions is where the power to move forward comes, because in love, their is healing and when we begin to heal we become more powerful in being able to love others unconditionally.

As I was crying out to God the other night and asking him to help me through the pain and release the fear and pain from every part of my body, I realize so much of the pain came from me believing that I was not loveable, not worthy of love. I realize it is the reason why I was shutting people out and why I was beginning to feel so hopeless and lost. I realized I have been punishing myself  for parts of the painful process of this seperation, I have not been allowing God’s love to heal me, nor allowing his love thru others to sustain and uphold me. When I woke up this morning, I felt a deep longing to be around friends and loved ones to be a part of something.

It is thru the giving and receiving of love that we heal.  It is pure love that empowers us to overcome our fears. And it is the fear of not being loved, of being rejected that we hide.  I realize part of my learning right now, part of my uphill climb is to allow love back into my life, to open myself up for love, to release and give to God the old untrue beliefs that I am not loveable, to push against that, to challenge that very thought and to accept the fact that not only am I loveable in my worst of times but that I am WORTHY of LOVE. So today, I am going to reach out and make that phone call to my friend and my sister, I’m going to focus on  loving and enjoying my children, and allowing myself to love and be loved in return.  And thank God for another day to learn and love and overcome.

 

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Personal Power

The other day I found myself driving down the highway, listening to Alanis Morsette and crying!  As I listened, the words struck me to the very core:

That I would be good even if I did nothing,
That I would be good even if i got the thumbs down,
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick,
that I would be good even if i gained ten pounds….

that i would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that i would be grand if I was not all knowing….

I painfully realized that somewhere along my life journey I picked up on the lie that who I am is  not good enough.  Not only did I let that lie sit in my mind, but I took it into my heart and believed it to be true.  I have been spending years playing that out and pushing myself beyond exhaustion to prove that I AM good enough.   I have wasted so much time and energy aligning myself with others expectations, judgements and limitations. I have been consumed with concern of how my actions look to other people and striving to please others so that I could have the reward of recognition and feeling good enough.  The sad thing is….there has been no change or reward, only the continued feelings of  worthlessness, hurt and shame.  I’ve gone the other way also and  have played it small so I wouldn’t make others uncomfortable or cause them to shun me!  No wonder I have felt crazy, depressed or both for so many years!

Why? Why have I done this?  I don’t know all the reasons….but this I do know….. I’m Done.  I’m taking back my own personal power, the power to choose who I want to be, and to respect who I am already. I’m choosing to love myself for who I am, and see myself thru God’s eyes. I ‘m choosing to not let others define who I am, my worth or my capabilities. I’m choosing to be more concerned with loving and accepting myself unconditionally and allowing God to work through me, not limiting myself or what He can do.  I no longer choose to be  limited by other people’s negative perceptions and opinions, and I no longer choose to believe the Lie that I am not good enough.

I believe that there is great power in realizing that a change just starts with a simple act of choosing.  I have been given the god given right and power to choose, we all have.  I believe that when I come to the God in Heaven and ask him to walk with me and to guide me and to show me who I am in his eyes and fill me with his unconditional love, He will.  I have come to understand that this is where my strength to do hard things and my ability to seperate myself from untrue beliefs and others false perceptions and judgements will come from, through Christ. When I choose God first, and I follow His voice and His counsel and I allow myself to see myself through His eyes, I am truly free.  Free to choose who I want to be, free from others definitions and opinions, free from shame, guilt and untruths. His love heals me and sets me free to be my best self.  I’m striving to reach higher, use my personal power to CHOOSE my actions and turning to God for strength to do these things.  I choose to believe that I AM GOOD ENOUGH! What are you choosing to believe today?

The Power of Being Selfless

I read a quote today by Wayne Dyer “Worrying doesn’t take away tomorrow’s troubles, it takes away today’s peace.”

How much of our time and energy is spent and wasted on worrying? I’ve started to become very aware of a heavy dark feeling that has invaded me for some time.  Just recently I’ve realized it has simply been the energy of worrying .  I fret over details, people and events to which I have no control over.  My mind will continually play on and on with thoughts of doubt, fears and worries, unless I consciously stop and focus on the now.

Think about it….how much do we really have control over? And does worrying change or solve anything?  It absolutely does not!  It  is a complete waste of energy and time and it is a mind trap!  As I’ve become aware of this, I’ve been discovering ways to overcome and avoid the trap.  I know that there are many ways and many tools, and I would love to hear what you have discovered.  This is what I’ve learned so far:

1. Realize that the only person you have control over is you. Remember this and adjust your thought process and beliefs.

2. God is over all and when we invite Him, he will guide and direct the things we cannot see and that we do not have control over.  He will speak peace to our hearts and minds.   As we align our will with His will for us, and commit to be determined in serving Him, we can have confidence that he will help provide all that we need.

3. Reach higher! Strive to live in a way that our thoughts and energy are centered in serving and helping others, fulfilling our divine mission, and creating a better environment for ourselves and those around us.

When I have shifted my focus from me, me , me, to  asking “who can I help today? “,  great power and peace have entered and sustained me.  It is the power of selflessness and it’s so freeing! When I ask myself this question, it gets me out of my mind trap.  Then I start reaching into my heart and searching and I open up to God to guide me.  I begin to live from faith, love and peace instead of fear, worry and regret.  It is absolutely magical!

So…..Go create magic in your life!….. and leave the worries, fears and doubts at the Lord’s feet!

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What do you do to overcome worry, fear and doubt?  Please share.