As I have returned home from a Zeal For Life business convention, all fired up and ready to go, ready to move mountains in myself and in others, I realize fear is the number one obstacle that keeps me from moving forward. I have a new motto now….”do the thing you fear!” This has given me guidance and helped me day to day build confidence in myself. When we know we are afraid of something, especially of doing something we know we need to do or God has asked us to do, when we move through the fear and do it, we are blessed with confidence. Every day I use this motto as my gauge and my encouragement. If I find myself feeling down, or wandering around in confusion I ask myself “what are you afraid of doing?” “what are you avoiding doing?” and when I identify it, that is what I do that day, the very thing I am avoiding because it is the #1 thing I need to do that day or I would not be getting opposition. As I have been doing this, I realize my confidence and peace grows strong, I feel in control of my life and myself. When we move through our fears and are proactive in facing them we are empowered to be in a place of action to use our agency, instead of being in a place of reaction and feeling controlled. It is liberating to conquer our fears, to move through them and beyond, for God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of courage! So today, I say “rise up!”. Identify your fears, face them and move through them to a life of greater freedom. This life is about acting, creating, growing….the more we get out of our comfort zone, the greater our ability is to be led by an all loving and knowing God and to partner with Him in helping ourselves and others in profound ways. Rise up, face those fears, do the thing you fear and move into freedom and peace!
As I am preparing to uproot my family and move to another location, alone….I am coming to understand and appreciate more and more the counsel from God to “be still and know that I am God.” I woke up this morning feeling a great amount of anxiety because things were not working out the way I wanted and I felt that things were unraveling before me, that I was not going to get to where I wanted to go. The fighter in me began to rise up my thoughts began something like this, ” I will be moving this week come hell or high water, I don’t care what I have to do, this will happen!” And my anxiety grew and I could not feel the spirit of the Lord with me, I hate that feeling! So I began to get still inside, quieting my thoughts and striving to connect back with my heart. I began to speak to myself again “You are in the Lord’s hands, he will help you and watch over you. Maybe this is all happening for a reason. Let him guide you, go with the flow. ”
It has been a year now since I wrote this and on that day, I did move forward, my children and I, with my cousins help, moved 2 hours away and started our new life. It has been a journey of learning and I have been a witness of many miracles. God sustained us and opened doors that day, just as He has every day since. He has sent people at needed times and Angels to uplift, sustain and edify me and my family. He has blessed us with money out of no where and opportunities for more. To this day, I continue to learn that God speaks to us in many different ways, but the most powerful way is when He speaks directly to our hearts in a way that we must be still to hear and know.
I’ve come to understand that being still means that I quiet my mind, I stop thinking and I just quiet everything in my body and feel. When I do this, it’s when I can feel Him so near and in a quiet but powerful way He speaks right to my heart. I have noticed that knowing this has given me so much strength and direction in the mist of confusion. I know that if I can get quiet and look into my heart, He will be there and I know it is Him because only He can speak to the heart, my spirit. His still small voice, cuts through the loud confusion and fear and anxiety quickly. His voice is gentle, direct and brings peace and a feeling of overall well being.
“Being still” means that we don’t react to the voices of fear and doubt and negativity that surround us and bombard our minds on a consistent basis. God knows when we get still, we are putting ourselves in a place of hearing and receiving, its when we can receive clearly and then move forward with power. Getting still requires us to use our agency in a powerful way in the midst of confusion, confusion is of the devil, he wants us to get caught up in reacting. When we react to fear and anxiety, we give Satan power over us, but when we make the choice to get still in the midst of confusion, we are taking a very powerful stand for ourselves and God. We are disengaging from the confusion that is of Satan, we are saying “I see you Satan, I know what this is and I am not going to participate and you cannot have power over me.” When we choose to get still and seek God, we are showing forth true power and inviting God’s power to carry us forward and through. So when you and I begin to feel worry, doubt, fear and anxiety….we need to recognize it for what it is, and then get still, look for God, invite Him into our hearts and receive what He has to give. God truly lives, is over all and offers His love and peace always in every moment. We just need to “be still and know that he IS God.”
Lately I have been reminded over and over the power in gratitude. I’ve definitely seen some dark days and challenges seem to be a constant, especially as of late…. being separated from my husband, doing the single mom thing, moving to a new area, balancing between work and kids….nothing that others cannot relate too. Yet over and over, I see that we have the power to shift a seemingly negative situation into a positive, by simply choosing gratitude.
I was profoundly reminded of this just last week, when I found myself sobbing, as I was driving a long way back home, and had to pull to the side of the road so that I could see and regain some composure. I had been wrestling with a big decision that day and felt so much confusion and hopelessness that I just couldn’t take it anymore. As I sat in my car on the side of the road, i began to plead with God through my sobbing. A few minutes later, I was shocked to see a stranger standing outside my car, at my window, knocking. I rolled down my window, and listened as this young gentleman proceeded to tell me that he had passed by 2 previous cars in need that day and had asked the Lord if he should stop, at which the impressions were “no”, but that when he came upon my car, he felt deeply impressed that he should and that he should share an article with me. To my unbelief it was a talk from Elder Uchtdorf entitled “Grateful in Any Circumstances.” This young man proceeded to tell me that the Lord wanted me to know that He is so aware of me and my circumstances and that all would be well. I sobbed again, thanked him, and he returned to his car.
What I have since come to realize is that God was hearing my cries that day, but I really couldn’t see the blessings or hear the answers until I began to acknowledge and show gratitude for the many blessings I had received already. As I have begun to choose gratitude, I have been humbled as my eyes have been open to the reality of my life. I am blessed with 4 beautiful children, and they have a father who loves them and strives to take good care of them, and strives to keep a friendship with me. I have so many loving friends and with each new friend the circle just keeps expanding. The work I get to do blesses others in profound ways. I get to work with friends that are like family and I get to work from home! I am blessed with health, which I did not have, even just a year ago. I feel closer to my God then ever and see His hand in my life daily. I have food, water, shelter and love. I am extremely well taken care of… Gratitude is like magic, it completely changes the way we look and feel about our life situations. Gratitude carries with it the energy of hope, healing and peace. It is a powerful tool against lies and deception. It is a tool that empowers us in any circumstance! Here is my invitation to you, my friends,….. cultivate an attitude of gratitude! For sure, I’m trying. God Bless us all in our efforts!
The other day I found myself driving down the highway, listening to Alanis Morsette and crying! As I listened, the words struck me to the very core:
That I would be good even if I did nothing,
That I would be good even if i got the thumbs down,
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick,
that I would be good even if i gained ten pounds….
that i would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that i would be grand if I was not all knowing….
I painfully realized that somewhere along my life journey I picked up on the lie that who I am is not good enough. Not only did I let that lie sit in my mind, but I took it into my heart and believed it to be true. I have been spending years playing that out and pushing myself beyond exhaustion to prove that I AM good enough. I have wasted so much time and energy aligning myself with others expectations, judgements and limitations. I have been consumed with concern of how my actions look to other people and striving to please others so that I could have the reward of recognition and feeling good enough. The sad thing is….there has been no change or reward, only the continued feelings of worthlessness, hurt and shame. I’ve gone the other way also and have played it small so I wouldn’t make others uncomfortable or cause them to shun me! No wonder I have felt crazy, depressed or both for so many years!
Why? Why have I done this? I don’t know all the reasons….but this I do know….. I’m Done. I’m taking back my own personal power, the power to choose who I want to be, and to respect who I am already. I’m choosing to love myself for who I am, and see myself thru God’s eyes. I ‘m choosing to not let others define who I am, my worth or my capabilities. I’m choosing to be more concerned with loving and accepting myself unconditionally and allowing God to work through me, not limiting myself or what He can do. I no longer choose to be limited by other people’s negative perceptions and opinions, and I no longer choose to believe the Lie that I am not good enough.
I believe that there is great power in realizing that a change just starts with a simple act of choosing. I have been given the god given right and power to choose, we all have. I believe that when I come to the God in Heaven and ask him to walk with me and to guide me and to show me who I am in his eyes and fill me with his unconditional love, He will. I have come to understand that this is where my strength to do hard things and my ability to seperate myself from untrue beliefs and others false perceptions and judgements will come from, through Christ. When I choose God first, and I follow His voice and His counsel and I allow myself to see myself through His eyes, I am truly free. Free to choose who I want to be, free from others definitions and opinions, free from shame, guilt and untruths. His love heals me and sets me free to be my best self. I’m striving to reach higher, use my personal power to CHOOSE my actions and turning to God for strength to do these things. I choose to believe that I AM GOOD ENOUGH! What are you choosing to believe today?
I read a quote today by Wayne Dyer “Worrying doesn’t take away tomorrow’s troubles, it takes away today’s peace.”
How much of our time and energy is spent and wasted on worrying? I’ve started to become very aware of a heavy dark feeling that has invaded me for some time. Just recently I’ve realized it has simply been the energy of worrying . I fret over details, people and events to which I have no control over. My mind will continually play on and on with thoughts of doubt, fears and worries, unless I consciously stop and focus on the now.
Think about it….how much do we really have control over? And does worrying change or solve anything? It absolutely does not! It is a complete waste of energy and time and it is a mind trap! As I’ve become aware of this, I’ve been discovering ways to overcome and avoid the trap. I know that there are many ways and many tools, and I would love to hear what you have discovered. This is what I’ve learned so far:
1. Realize that the only person you have control over is you. Remember this and adjust your thought process and beliefs.
2. God is over all and when we invite Him, he will guide and direct the things we cannot see and that we do not have control over. He will speak peace to our hearts and minds. As we align our will with His will for us, and commit to be determined in serving Him, we can have confidence that he will help provide all that we need.
3. Reach higher! Strive to live in a way that our thoughts and energy are centered in serving and helping others, fulfilling our divine mission, and creating a better environment for ourselves and those around us.
When I have shifted my focus from me, me , me, to asking “who can I help today? “, great power and peace have entered and sustained me. It is the power of selflessness and it’s so freeing! When I ask myself this question, it gets me out of my mind trap. Then I start reaching into my heart and searching and I open up to God to guide me. I begin to live from faith, love and peace instead of fear, worry and regret. It is absolutely magical!
So…..Go create magic in your life!….. and leave the worries, fears and doubts at the Lord’s feet!
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What do you do to overcome worry, fear and doubt? Please share.